Its 3:20am. Im shaking so hard I can barely find a comfortable position. Can't sleep, like always when she goes out.
I cant send her messages because it'll annoy her, and no one else is awake to keep me busy.
To make matters worse, an entire fortified army of mosquitos invaded my room and Im killing them as a pastime.
I realize now that this wont change. This is me for the next few months, every night, shaking in a cold sweat because Im scared. Its unhealthy, and a deja-vu I wish Id never have to experience again.
I feel like I stepped into a time machine and it zapped me back to a year ago. Same shit, different day.
Shes home now. 3:24am.
Still scared, the shaking went down to my legs and is slowly dying off.
I cant do this to myself.