Its 4 am
And i cant understand
If Im less of a man
Or she had other plans
As if the day wasnt enough
So the night had to pitch in
To cause my quick trip to the hospital
To finally drop my chin
And Im not sure what to do
Or how to behave
But the questions still linger
Do I have a say?
And now I cant sleep
Let alone be awake
Because when Im hurting in bed
Shes out making mistakes
Ive reached a point where
I can accept the bad parts of good things
How theres a leveling factor to all parts of life
When theres something amazing happening
The rotten pieces are still there
All you have to do is learn to live with them
Maybe the one concept that
Claws at my deepest concern
Is uncertainty...
Because what better way to
Tame a man's pride than to strip him
Of his knowledge
And place in front of him an
Unpredictable future?
It surely tortures me at night
To have the lingering thought that any day
Any minute
Any second
Someone new will close the open circle of her life
Someone more like her
Someone there and that will always be
And you ask yourself...
What would my dreams portray
And how would I wake up
If there was
No uncertainty?
It irritates me how some people
Get it all without suffering
The full extent
Without knowing the difficulty
And ever becoming friends with it
Because here lies all those who
Work their fingers to the bone
Who play all roles
To get the misery and bitter pay in the end
While the ones who do one thing
And barely check it over
Have their faces on TV
Manipulating a story that tells the false truth of their hardships...
I am misunderstood...
I am not what people believe
I am not what my parents think Ill be
I am not what the government would like me to be
I am not what the coordinators say of me
I am not what numbers describe me
I am not what I'm not
I am me.
