Perseverance?

The issue with perseverance
Is that to fully solidify its strength
You must first threaten to let it go
And those that may know you as the perseverer
That sudden change in description
May frigthen them
And they'll step back
And they'll rethink
Reconstruct
You
Yes, you
In their minds
So that the only memory they have of you
Was the one they altered to fit in the new
Impatient
Inappropriate
Fake bastard
That you tested once upon a time to be

Thinking

Perhaps in the unweary continuity of time
I am excused for my insecurity
And the inclusion of an old yet recurrent enemy
Only heightened my right to be so

Never had I thought
That thinking
Would be an issue

The overthinking...
The obsessive pondering
The pedestal I built high enough so that
I would never climb to be on top
But low enough so that I could
Sling others
To be over my head
And out of my reach

Its the belief that I am what I am
And what I am is not what
I should be

Its the thinking
And there it goes again
Thinking
And thinking
And thinking again...