Because I Love Her

Am I not right
To fight for myself?
Is there some guideline
A law
That I am ignorant of
One that restricts my rebellion?

My heart played tricks on my mind
And mind played tricks on my body
My body plays no tricks
It is physical
It can sense the pain
The danger
It feels what I chose to ignore
To make way for her to enter in peace
And to comfort herself in peace

I was happy to be unhappy
If her happiness would be guaranteed

But now I see
That the torture I've imposed
Upon myself
Is needless

I can be happy
I can melt off these chains
And still be all there is to be
To her

I can smile
Painlessly

I can love
With no precaution

Thus from that thought
I will

Because I love her

Because I love her...

What Am I

I'm no Greek God
My body wasnt sculped
My skin is not smooth
Nor are my eyes clear

I dont hunt the prey
I dont seduce with actions
I'm not a soldier
I'm not a general

But I have something
They'll never have

I have melody and color
I have respect and gentleness
I have fear and conviction

But the worst part of it all
Is that the beauty underneath the skin
Is hardly ever noticed

Now dont tell me I'm lying.

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I cant function properly
At 1 in the morning
I tremble and whimper
While my body's contorting

I keep counting the minutes
Till the end of my suffering
Im slowly fainting
From the shaking and snorting

Please come home
Please be safe
Please come back
Dont go away

But theres nothing I can do
To kill the time
Except hope for the best
While shes blazing the night

The Misunderstood

Who wouldve known
That keeping a secret
Would harm you so deeply

That it would haunt you
Would transform you
Would force fear and worry into you
Heart

Youre of them now
The misunderstood
The patienceless
The needy
The irritated

To them youre nothing but a bastard
Youre nothing but selfish and
Harsh

Because when they ask you
to be gentle
You know you try
But the fear clouds your trying

Who wouldve known
That telling the secret
Wouldnt make a difference?

The Demons Are Back...

I guess I expected too much
I hoped for too many things
I let dreams take me hostage

Im on my own again
Because people are people
Because plans are plans
Because life is life

Now Ill face my demons by myself
But thats ok
Ive faced them alone all this time
I just have to sharpen my blade

Promises

Promise 12 and 13 are about to be broken
While 14 and 15 are being made

Promise 10 and 11 werent kept
And 8 and 9 were true, you'd say

Promise 6 and 7 were somehow forgotten
While 4 and 5 werent strong anyway

Promise 2 and 3 were very misleading
Promise 1 promised "no promises, no way"

There's No Rest For Us...

Theres no rest for us
No calm nights
No reward nor
Any light

Theres no rest for us
No understanding
No comprehension
No sacrifice pending

Theres no rest for us
The ones who care
Who soak up the pain
For their mindless affairs

Theres no rest for us
The madly in love
Who have to be better
Yet never good enough

Theres no rest for us
The ones who worry
Who deem nights our enemy
The only that are sorry

There no rest for us
But of course we knew
Yet we hoped for change
But theres no change in view...

Im Done

Im done

Trying to make this work both ways
Trying to give and get
Trying to be more than I can be
Trying to hold on to my thoughts
Trying to please you
Trying to become what you want

Im done trying to easy it up for me, too

Lets have it your way
Im done

Heroes and Heroics

Its so easy to become the villain
When all Im trying to do is have
Heroic qualities...

Because people never understand
That youre really trying to protect them
Because a few hours of stupidity
Weighs more than a few hours of tranquility

But I guess thats something
I have to get used to

Because heroes are trampled
Knocked over
Tackled and underappreciated
For wanting the safety of another

Oh well...